Friday, February 26, 2010
am i spendthrift? maybe i'm still immature?
then when can i be more mature?
knowing that my sis had to work to provide some financial assistance to the family since 18
i shouldnt spend my pocket money at stuff like accessories and clothes
knowing that my mum have to stand for 12hrs at seagate
just to earn an income to support the family
i shouldnt spend my pocket money on myself
instead i should save it or buy little stuff for them once in a while
like food that they like or stuff that will make them happy
knowing that daddy is such a spendthrift
shouldnt i be more sensible and thoughtful to save more money
but then i often forget these big sacrifices cause i guess i'm selfish?
i wanna find a part time job this hols
but then i think the reason of me wanting the job isnt that right
cause i wanted to use my salary if i can even find a job
to return jie the hundred i borrowed to buy christmas gifts
to pay for my expenses in taiwan, to buy stuff for myself(see see.selfish)
to save some which i doubt there's much left
and to give some to my parents which daddy will anyhow spend
but still i have to give.its only right to give
i want to buy new clothes but i'm not cause i only have my two red packets every year
which i'm gonna save it in case i cant get a job for my taiwan trip
i dont wanna take money from my parents cause its like i wanna go
they didnt told me to.its extra expenses
so if i dont count my two red packets money, i only have like 4.95 worth of cash
which is like erm kinda pathetic and tml i'm going out with elvin for movie and dinner
and yar its like not enough but then i dont wanna spend his money.i think its not right
cause he doesnt have an income
and i still i have my stand on who says guys have to pay.i dont wanna owe him
so yeah.i have to find a way
M
12:39 AM
