supposed to collect my phone today
but jie offered to help me with the collection
so i stayed at home and she decided not to anymore
when it was close to the end of their operating hours -.-
cause she wanna watch tv
i should have went in the first place

she said she would collect it tml):
and she claims that since i havent used it for a week plus i have msn
but the thing is msn is only effective to a certain extent

i dont know if anyone can understand how i feel
its day 37 and i miss elvin a lot
the feeling goes beyond just typing out i miss him so very much
its something that i myself cant explain

we used to hang out
we used to see each other at least twice a week
we used to msn and text each other everyday
we used to text when one of us cant come online
but now i cant text him
i can only wait in front of the screen
not knowing when he would come online
or even if he is coming online

i would break down at times cause i miss him too much
i would cry in bed when the night falls
and sometimes i cry till i fall asleep

it feels like there's two of me
one moment i'm crapping and all happy and stuff
and next moment i just cry when nobody's looking

and all these crying isnt helping the headache at all