exams are coming!! i'm trying to mug as much as i can. but i always landed up spending most of my time on hw instead. a.maths test was tough today. i studied really hard for it lah.sad
i guess its the end of my journey. although the results aren't out yet but i have long knew the answer deep down in my heart. i strive so hard for it. it was passion. i had so much determination to carry on. despite all the things that happened. i must admit that i felt like giving up many times. i wanted it so badly. just to make everyone happy and proud. my guiders. my company. my seniors.my family.my friends and most importanly myself. but i couldnt make it at the very end. despite all the efforts everyone put in. i dont know.i feel like i have let everyone down. i could have worked even harder. why didnt i study hard enough. i couldnt answer pratically everything of the guiding knowledge section. what happened to me. i just blanked out.its such a waste. singapore knowledge went so well. i have been so far and now everything is over. what happened to my determination?! why didnt i thought of ms tan more. i could have won it for her. once again we dont have a PGA guide. i regretted not studying harded.i really do. but there's nothing i can do to turn back time. its all my fault. i was the only hope this year and i let all of you down. all that comforting words only made me feel worse. because i just didnt tried hard enough. look at how the other schools prepared for PGA. look at the stack of notes they have. it was cleared that i wouldnt get far. its over.all over.
