i hope that ms tan's break wouldnt affect my progress of PGA
but if i said it has no impact at all, i must be lying.
it has indeed made a big differences.
my morale went down
but on the other hand, it makes me want to get it more.
i'm not going for PGA simply for fun.
its for the passion, for our dreams.
i went for myself and also for ms tan.
and also not to disappoint those who supports me.
knowing her conditions made me wanna strive harder just for her.
i had a really bad day today.
it really sucks!

i dont care what you're up to
but please i beg you, stop all that sucking up.
who do you exactly wants to please?
you dont have to please me
so dont waste your efforts.
stop acting cute, i cant stand it.
this have got you this far when you dont even deserve it
many others deserve the chance more than you seriously.
stop sticking to me.i hate it.
and please i beg you, dont be a pest.
dont affect my progress.
it means a lot to me.really.
and i dont have much time.
you have all the time in the world
that you can waste it so easily.
but i'm different.
so please dont disturb me.
i would be happy if you leave me alone.
i dont mind you being around me
as long as you dont irritate me.