i'm feeling very weird now..i juz lost my concentration in class..i onli manage to take in lyk maybe one quarter of wad e teachers have been saying..even ms kang noticed e difference in me..i know wad it is..but den joey seems to understand everything..which made me feel comfortable with her telling her things tt i normally wouldnt tell others..its lyk she noes how i'm feeling n she actually could describe e feeling i have without even telling her..so i was realli disappointed in some pple todae..n i got very hurt by some pple as they juz indirectly hurt me with their words n actions lah..i find tt its all my fault lah as it all started because of me..although lynette told me it wasnt my fault..but its like i got to live life as it is lolz..i have to carry on even though realli bad things happened to me..its lyk i realli got no mood to do anything lah..even dancing although its my passion..i cant even be bothered to watch tv..its lyk i got no freedom you all r juz controlling me in almost everything i do..its my life y cant i live it my way..kkz not my way but e way i wan to be..i shdnt be control in everything n even if i'm control it shdnt be you all..cuz wad r you all..you all r juz frens lah..if you all r controlling n its for my own good fine i got nth to sae,,but tis is lyk no its e opposite..i feel so paraoid n hurt