Monday, December 05, 2005
+_i'm so worried 4 my family_+bro came back yesterdae frm work b4 i could even go online n chat with jona n xiao mei..had nth to do so i juz stay in e room n plug into my music as usual.Sis went to work so i had e room all to myself.had some peaceful time with myself at last after so much had happen..there i was lying on my bed tiking of loads of stuff..abt my family finacial n e no 1 topic tt i'd nv exclude,my luv life.I really wonder how long more can my family survive..i noe all tis yrs had been really tough 4 both dad n mum..mum's job is e onli thing tt we can rely on..sis n bro are working now..both of their pay is for his own use..sometimes dad would borrow some frm sis n return a few daes later..after sis graaduate..wadeva she earn frm her new job would be for her own use n payment of certain thoings tt i'm not sure wad izzi but its sth got to do with e university i tik..n tt time i wondered whether dad n mum will have enough money for themselves n dun forget i'm still schooling..when i reached sixteen i'll go out n work during holidaes do at least i can help abit u c..its better den nth right..so now one year is coming to end dad n mum juz have to tahan 2 more years den i reached 16 already by den i can go n get a job..haiz..i've decided i'm juz going to keep everything to myself frm now on..i know things r impossible between us so i tried to give u up but i juz can't do it..u ppeared in my thoughts every now n den..its so difficult to forget u..so i choose to luv u in e silent frm tis very moment..+_princess cheerful_++_11.42pm_+
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