Monday, November 28, 2005
+_if onli i've e courage to tell u how i feel.._+
being tiking alot eva since e camp have started..emotions rises n i'm in a total state of confusion..i need sumone to be my guiding light..i'm lyk totally lost in my world not knowing wad to do..damn it..i'm feeling so weird all of a sudden..lyk there's a sense of emptiness within me..i seriously dunnoe y..luv is such a mystery.joy n pain..i realised tt i was realli stupid n foolish..i shdn't have cum to e conclusion of giving u up n telling myself to fall 4 sumone else..now tt my heart has a place 4 tt sumone even though e luv is still now strong yet..i dun wanna be heartbroken once again..but one thing tt realli made me puzzled n letting me broke down is tt question tt i've alwiz wanted to noe..which is do u even luv me..can't u juz tell me straight up in my face n olso at e same time tell me how u feel all tis while..u're not telling me anything n e onli thing u do 4 tis long period of time is to stare at me..r u going to continue staring at me till u graduate..can't u juz end tis whole damn thing..i seriously can't take it anymore..i wanna tell u how i feel but i hesistate all tis while even till now..i still dun have e courage n olso wif e mind set tt i dun wanna spoil ur mood n life juz bcuz of how i'm feeling..if luving u will bring u sorrows i rather be e one getting all hurt n heartbroken..i realli hope tt e dae would arrive soon so tt i've e courage to tell u how i feel...once again i shed my tears into buckets juz 4 u..
i luv u.i hate u.i cared 4 u.i shed my tears 4 u n i live strongly all tis while juz 4 u..
+_princess cheerful;i've broken down once again.._+
+_5.52pm_+
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