Sunday, October 16, 2005
+_i've fallen so deep tt nobody was there 2 catch me; -fallen in2 e state of depression-_+
i've fallen so deep in2 e state of depression den i couldn't get back 2 my feet..e side of cheerfulness within me is being locked up in me tt i couldn't find it back..everydae i put on a mask n crap around but deep inside i'm in e state of depression..n nobody noes e real me..even shafiqah..it seems tt i've 4got how 2 be happi..n i need sum1 2 teach me n its got 2 be u..but u dunnoe abt it as e mask had gave u e impression tt i'm alwiz so cheerful..yesh u're right but tts e old me..now i'm no longer tt cheerful gal..i've tried 2 look at e brightside of life but it seems tt i juz simply couldn't take it any longer tt caused my fall..e unspoken bittersweet luv is too tiring..i feel lyk running away frm reality cuz i feel miserable..e stress frm academic 2 probs..i can't wait 4 exams 2 end..it will be e time 2 face e truth 4 both of us..e ans tt i feared would be let out frm ur heart n i'd be either fall even deeper or e side of cheerfulness be unlocked..i wished upon e shooting stars tt it'd be wad i've been waiting 4..i turn up e radio n blast e stereo n let those speakers blow my mind n let it go let it go 2 4get my depression as e system got me feel so fine..-la da di da da di dy-
+_princess cheerful; is gone in2 hiding behind a mask_+
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3:18 AM
